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Sunday, March 06, 2005

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 16:22:27 GMT

I am no fan of poems, but I love this one. Plus, my site lacks of emo.

Prayer Before Birth by Loius MacNeice

I am not yet born; O hear me.
Let not the bloodsucking bat or the rat or the stoat or the
     club-footed ghoul come near me.

I am not yet born, console me.
I fear that the human race may with tall walls wall me,
     with strong drugs dope me, with wise lies lure me,
        on black racks rack me, in blood-baths roll me.

I am not yet born; provide me
With water to dandle me, grass to grow for me, trees to talk
     to me, sky to sing to me, birds and a white light
        in the back of my mind to guide me.

I am not yet born; forgive me
For the sins that in me the world shall commit, my words
     when they speak me, my thoughts when they think me,
        my treason engendered by traitors beyond me,
           my life when they murder by means of my
              hands, my death when they live me.

I am not yet born; rehearse me
In the parts I must play and the cues I must take when
     old men lecture me, bureaucrats hector me, mountains
        frown at me, lovers laugh at me, the white
            waves call me to folly and the desert calls
              me to doom and the beggar refuses
                 my gift and my children curse me.

I am not yet born; O hear me,
Let not the man who is beast or who thinks he is God
     come near me.

I am not yet born; O fill me
With strength against those who would freeze my
     humanity, would dragoon me into a lethal automaton,
        would make me a cog in a machine, a thing with
           one face, a thing, and against all those
              who would dissipate my entirety, would
                 blow me like thistledown hither and
                    thither or hither and thither
                       like water held in the
                          hands would spill me.

Let them not make me a stone and let them not spill me.
Otherwise kill me.

Monday, February 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 18:42:46 GMT

Heh. I didn't hear the alarm thingy this morning, so I missed half of school. I had 8 hours of precious sleep. That's all, really. Aside that I never do any homework..

Hey, but I aced my english papers today, okay? Who needs homework.. pfft.

Heh.. waterpipes.

Friday, February 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 17:06:05 GMT

hi. Welcome to my 348569764th Xanga, which I will probably neglect soon. I'm not in a ranty mood right now, so I'm just going to post today's... activities. Have been on a school-trip today, namely "Dialog Im Dunkeln" where you had to walk through some darkness and do crap while seeing nothing. You know, trying to walk in blind people's shoes. Exciting? Hardly. I was too lazy to find my way through the jungle of.. whatever there was (it was pitch black) so I just grabbed/groped onto some guy (he's actually quite fugly but it was dark so I couldn't be bothered) and let myself being lead to.. some bar where we had a short snack (also in darkness). Was quite interesting to pay in this darkness, almost as much as trying to drink and eat without shoving all the contents into people's faces. Actually, I expected they'd turn on the lights at the end of the thingy, but we just exited the dark passage. The place was probably brimming with rats and creatures.. eugh. Ah well. While other people felt quite anxious during this whole thing, I was rather in a.. groping mood.

Too bad. I skipped training today.. too damn lazy.

~Xiao